Oh boy! Whose turning one?!

Dear Blake,

On Saturday you will turn 11 months…what do I do to stop the time?  You are growing up so fast and you will soon turn 1 year old!  Of course I have been planning your big 1 year birthday for months now.  Especially because of pinterest (something your Mama is obsessed with), I have gotten so many ideas of Mickey Mouse themed birthday parties (what else?)  Your Daddy seems to think that your birthday party should be themed more like a boy themed like super heroes or something, I simply told him that you have your whole life to have a birthday party themed like that.  Your first birthday is going to be Mickey Mouse clubhouse which you happen to love anyway.  I have handmade invitations and sent them out already and started putting together projects of decorations.  I can’t wait to see your face that day when you encounter all the Mickeys and your first taste of birthday cake. 

We can take it easy on the next birthday, but you only have a first birthday party once…

Love,

Mom

Running and Mr. Rogers

Dear Blake,

In light of recent events that happened in Boston yesterday, I heard a quote said by Mr. Rogers years ago.  He said that whenever there were bad things in the news his Mom would say to him “Look for the helpers.  There are always people who are helping.”  I wish I could shelter you from all the evil in this world but I cannot.  I will try to teach you to see the good in this world and to look for the helpers.  While I was watching the news yesterday and saw the video clips over and over again, I noticed the helpers.  It seriously was amazing that while those poor runners were running away from the finish line (when they worked so hard to run towards it), other people were running toward the scene to help.  It is amazing there despite evil things that happen, that so many people are willing to help and do good in this world. 

I went for a run at 5am this morning.  I haven’t done that since I was training for marathons years ago.  I am a runner…this is what we do.  We wake up at obscene hours of the morning and go running in rain or shine, cold or heat.  We go running even though people try to scare us and think that we should never do it again, but this is when we perservere the most.  Runners are passionate and determined and nothing can stop us.  We run for great causes or charities or just to better ourselves.  We will not let evil stand in our way and today as I was running, I was thinking just that.  The run I went on this morning was for Boston, and all those that lost their lives in that tragedy and all those that got their accomplishment taken away from them.

I hope you see the good that is in this world and do not let evil stop you.

Love,

Mom

Smartie pants

Dear Blake,

Lately you have been doing such smart things, smart for a 10 month old I think.  You have this Little Tikes house you play in that has a mailbox you can put things in.  I tell you to “get the mail” and you come crawling from across the room to “get the mail.”  You know what word I’m saying!  You also started “setting up your toys.”  I feel like this is something that an older child would do, but you take your little toys or blocks and set them up on the ledge of a shelf or a table.  You experiment with them and see what happens if you knock them down.  If it goes under the shelf you go to look for it.  You also have this toy that bounces up and down and makes different colored plastic balls pop into the air.  The other day you took one of your stuffed animals and put it inside and watched it pop up and down and started laughing.  You also have this frog puppet and the other day I made it talk to you and wave at you and you started waving back at the puppet!  Sometimes I just sit back and watch you and it’s amazing to me.  It might be normal for a baby your age, but to me, you are a little smartie pants! 

Love,

Mom

No sleep

Dear Blake,

I knew this day would come…you were sleeping 12 hours up until this point.  Today you are having trouble sleeping, waking up every half hour.  Something might be wrong, maybe you have a cold, but it might be due to the fact that we kind of messed up your bedtime today.  We went to visit some friends that just had a baby and you didn’t get to bed at your usual time.  It might be messing you up. 

While I was holding the baby, I realized that she weighed the same that you weighed when you were born, but I found that I could not remember that you were that small.  It was only 10 months ago but I have already forgotten.  I forgot what it was like to hold a newborn and how small they really are.  I don’t want to forget what it was like when you were a newborn but it’s slowly slipping away.  I have pictures and videos but I know it’s not the same.  I love every stage of your life but I don’t want to forget that first stage.  I want to freeze time and keep you how you are right now but I know it won’t happen.  All I can do is think about the past and think about what the future holds and to focus on the present time with you as you are.

Love,

Mom

P.S. – as I wrote the ending of this letter, you fell asleep again.  Hopefully we can get some sleep tonight “fingers crossed.”