Happy Easter!

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Dear Blake,

Happy Easter!  A day filled with joy of our religious beliefs.  Today we have a full day ahead of us…we are going to church and you will get to see all sorts of family members and friends.  We will go to my church that I grew up at and it’s like coming home.  I hope you feel that same sense of welcoming that I do.  We will then come back home to a nice Easter lunch made by your Daddy (he is a great cook, as you will discover one day).  Then we will head back out to your Grandma and Papa’s house to have Easter dinner with the family! 

When I was little we always had an Easter Egg hunt and had to find our Easter baskets.  We would come downstairs in our pajamas on Easter morning, kind of like Christmas, and we would start searching.  We would search for our baskets first and each had our names on it.  Then we would start searching for the eggs.  Eggs that had money inside!  then we would put on our Sunday best with bonnets and all and head out to church.  Today will be similar because I know your Grandma and Papa are planning an Easter egg hunt, mostly for you, but also us “kids” will get to participate still.  I know there will be Easter baskets and now there will be one more basket hidden amonst ours.  There will be lots of food and good times spent with lots of family.  The joy for me will be to watch you find your Easter basket and eggs because that is what brings me happiness.  Today I am filled with Joy because you are in my life and I find myself smiling all the time no matter what I’m doing because I have you.  I hope you have a great first Easter and I know I will have the best time being with you and family and friends today.

I love you so much,

Mom

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Sickies

Dear Blake,

Today you are sick for the first time.  It is truly heartbreaking for me.  I know it’s just a cold and other people might think I’m overreacting, but you are my baby and to see you sick is so sad to me.  Last night I put you to bed and you usually sleep for 12 hours without waking up (I know we are lucky!)  Last night you woke up twice crying with a runny nose, and sneezing, and coughing.  I started crying because you were so sick.  We had a good 10 months without you being sick and today is just the beginning if you have my immune system.  Hopefully you have your Daddy’s immune system because he never gets sick!

Love,

Mom

Another poem (I’m on a roll!)

Dear Blake,

They handed you to me

Swaddled in blankets

Tiny baby boy

Instant love

Finally the day had come

Feelings of joy, happiness, worry

Couldn’t be happier

What do we do?

We learn as we go

Comforted by loved ones

Our lives have changed

Nothing will be the same

New discoveries

Becoming parents

So much love

 

Love,

Mom

 

A Blake Poem

Dear Blake,

I am your parent, you are my baby.

I am your right now, you are my maybe.

I am your serious, you are my giggle.

I am your calm, you are my wiggle.

I am your sleepytime, you are my time to play.

I am your time to go, you are my stay.

I am your rest, you are my go.

I am your yes, you are my no. 

I am your old, you are my new.

I am your biggest fan, you are my I LOVE YOU.

Love,

Mom

10 months old

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Dear Blake,

Today you are 10 months old…where has the time gone?  Since you were born I made it a point to do a “photo shoot” of you on each of your monthly birthdays.  I have a sticker for each month that I put on your shirt and then I snap a whole bunch of pictures of you and your little faces and emotions.  I am putting together a picture frame of a compilation of each of your monthly pictures.  Your relatives always get the lastest photo shoot pictures as well.  You are such a well loved boy!  You are growing way to fast and pretty soon you will be 1 year old.  I wish I could stop time and keep you how you are right now but then we wouldn’t get to see you grow into a sweet little boy.  I can’t wait to keep making memories with you.

Love,

Mommy

Taken over by toys

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Dear Blake,

Today as you were napping I was picking up the loft area, an area that used to be our movie spot, our relaxing spot, our getaway.  I looked at all your toys laying all over the floor and that getaway relaxing spot is no more.  But it’s ok…I would rather have it bursting with toys from floor to ceiling because it makes it feel more like a home.  Before everything was put in a special spot and organized so well, but now we have had to remove a lot of those things because they are dangerous for you and not safe.  I love the way the loft looks at the end of the day because it has been taken over by toys, and that’s just fine with me! 

It just means we had a fun day!

Love,

Mom

Spring break

Dear Blake,

I am so blessed today because I get to stay home with you for a whole week for spring break.  I remember when I started the school year and was so upset to leave you because I wanted to be the one that gets to be with you.  I got to be with you over Christmas break and now spring break.  I can’t wait to just sit at home and play with your toys with you and read you books and feed you and go places with you and just to be able to sit and rock you.  It’s the best days of my life!

Love,

Mom

Smoffy

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Dear Blake,

Growing up I had this little pink bunny stuffed animal that squeaked when you squeezed his tummy and I named “him” Smoffy.  My Mom says it was because one day I was sitting on the ground playing with him and was babbling baby talk and all of a sudden I said “Smoffy!”  That’s how he got his name.  Well Smoffy has been around since I was a baby like you and he is pretty old and tattered now.  I still have him.  He stays in a safe place in a box at the top of my closet.  It’s a childhood memory, friend, companion…

I have tried to find a replacement Smoffy (even though if I got a new one he would never be replaced because nothing could take place of the original Smoffy).  But I kept looking and searching the internet and could never find him.  A few months ago Daddy decided to try searching for a new Smoffy just as a surprise to Mommy.  First he found a yellow Smoffy!  It was Smoffy’s brother as we like to say.  It’s the same thing as the pink Smoffy but he’s a little yellow dog shape.  He bought it and it came in the mail and he was mine!  Daddy kept searching for a new pink one and finally he found one!  It’s pretty hard to find something from 1978 made by the Playskool company, but he did!  He emailed people to find out how he could get one.  Finally, a lady emailed him back and said she would be willing to part with the pink bunny because she actually had a few of them!  She said there was one catch…that I had to share my story of my pink bunny with her.  That was fine with me!  I emailed her back and told her the story of Smoffy and she emailed me back and told me her story of her same pink bunny named “Baba”. 

How exciting it was to find out that there was another lady in this world just as  crazy as I am that has a pink bunny from 1978 that was her favorite childhood stuffed animal!  She sent me the pink bunny through the mail and didn’t even charge me!  All she wanted was the story…naturally I sent her a gift card and some pictures of my Smoffy as a thank you. 

Ever since you were born I have been trying to see if you would take to a certain stuffed animal and make it your “Smoffy.”  You really like all of your stuffed animals.  When I got sent the pink bunny I decided to give you the yellow Smoffy brother to see if you would like it and of course you did!  As you held it and hugged it and giggled and laughed I knew there would be nothing in this world that I wouldn’t give you!  I truly know what it’s like to just want to make your child happy, because there’s nothing like seeing you happy.

Love,

Mom

Don’t go

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Dear Blake,

I went to the gym this morning to go running and as I left you crawled over to the baby gate and looked sad and acted like you didn’t want me to go.  I snapped this picture as I was leaving and then had a thought…

I hope you always want to be close to me and be with me.  I’ve heard so many people say “Just wait until the day he WANTS you to go.”  For now, I love the fact that you are attached to me.  I love the fact that you wait for me and wave bye bye to me and get super excited when I come home!  I will be keeping these memories close to my heart because I don’t want there to be a day when you WANT me to go. 

Love,

Mommy

Religion

Dear Blake,

There is a new series on the History channel called The Bible.  I find myself to be captivated by this and keep watching.  Your Dad and Grandpa watch too.  Growing up I was a very relgious person and was involved in every aspect of church that you could be.  I was in choir, a eucharistic minister, litergical dancer, and a scripture reader.  I was extremely involved in the youth group and on Sundays I would go to church twice, once with my family and once to the teen mass. 

Fast forward to the present, and I became one of those “C and E” catholics that only go to church on Christmas and Easter.  Lately I have been thinking that I want to start bringing you to church every Sunday to sit with your Grandma and Grandpa as a family and giving you the opportunity to have some faith.  It will also allow me to start renewing my faith.  We will start next week on Easter!

Love,

Mommy